The Speakable Me

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Real Life Princesses by Jirka Väätäinen

5 months ago 155,322 notes

First Trip

My trip to Europe has been a roller coaster.

I am hating and loving these moments. Geneve right now is an amazing city, but the heat is no funny.

On our way to Normandy. In the food court where they have paella. My meal was rice, spinach and fried fish fillet. I said my meal is sooo plain. This guy told me, “yes, its plain, like you”. He laughed and then said, “No you are actually cool. I really like you (maybe he said I like you, but I don’t remember), you are a cool girl”. I just smiled at him.

Literally as I remember that moment, it was the first time a guy ever told me in my face that he liked me and that I was cool. How sad of a life am I living in?

I felt instant appreciation, and began to feel attracted. For the most part of the trip, I think that he was just being polite about it. Stupid me, I thought it was something more. He never said he wanted to hang out with me, he never asked me to come with him and his group too. Maybe, he think I like him and told my friend about it. I met him twice when he was not with his group. I asked this friend if we wanted to ask him to come along with us. She said no (in a polite way). Probably, he told her something about me that he doesn’t like and then she helps him to keep me away from him.

I just heard that one of my good friends I met in this trip likes this guy. A friend of this guy also said that he might like my good friend. Isn’t this even sadder?

I can’t even like him in a good way. As time passes by, I think that nobody really likes me genuinely in this trip. There must be something that they want or need from me. Nobody even told me about breakfast this morning. I missed breakfast and I was really mad about it. I had to pay my own breakfast and also waited for 3 freaking hours to get it.

When you live in a dorm, there is no private place for yourself. I hate this situation. I want to go back home and just study in my uni. I don’t want to see these people again. They are making me sick. Okay, I am so pissed and some of these are unnecessary.

I have several days left in this trip. I have to make them, the best days of my life!